In the twilight of consciousness, between the real and surreal, there abides a well of imaginative and loose connections. It’s an interesting state of awareness: part stupor, part awake, part blurry and distant and part close at hand. It may feel like a waste of time yet time is not linear in this state of being. You know you are able, through willpower, to snap out of it yet you can also surrender and relax into where it takes you.
Twilight is a fascinating word too. Like the twilight of a career. It’s a state where one can remove themselves from their identity, reputation, legacy, and put distance between that and the real you. Many times people would come up and greet me with the salutation “you’re Pinon Management.” In the peak of my career I generally, with some embarrassment, let it pass. In the twilight, though, I consciously demurred. There were many fine people that worked there but that wasn’t who I am. We have manifold roles in this life to feed ego or identities. Some learn it fast, slow, or never learn that these are the working out of karma, the teaching of lessons. You realize that and other profound things as you let go of them, voluntarily or involuntarily. It’s a blessing to do it voluntarily
